Monday, March 17, 2008
it's been long since anyone blogged here
and i assume no one visits this site anymore.
so that just means i can blog freely like it's a private blog heh! (:
( of cos i do know who will come and read since i got the password from her. )
school's been busy,
very. in fact.
but im still enjoying it! ((:
from tomorrow onwards, we'll be down to our final specialism project.
and good news, i have my tuedays and fridays off.
bad news, these off days are meant to catch up on unfinished work
as well as development of the final.
four full weeks to the assessment day,
im feeling the pressure and competition among everyone.
let's just say even between myself and my friends (of cos referring to those taking the same course)
suddenly everyone seems to be on guard against one another
but i do understd that we really hafta fight for our place in that course.
aye.
i'll have my fingers crossed,
and hopefully lady luck's shining on me!
sigh. days have been so hectic.
i miss hanging out with friends, i miss having time to myself,
i miss so many things and so many people.
and im proud to say i've not stepped into club for gg three months.
of cos pubbing and late nights chillouts arent counted.
i do miss partying actually.
pfft. may. till may comes, i'll party like a rockstar.
the workload has been suffocating me
so much so im getting crankier of late.
even my teacher's saying im becoming an angsty woman.
maybe cos some pple are just so insensitive and self-centered,
they care for themselves and only themselves.
and esp when i've lack of sleep i tend to snap at anyone and everyone.
for that, im sorry.
but for you, i just need that lil understanding.
seriously.
i havent flared at you because i know you've always been like a big brother looking over me.
but one thing you must know,
we all have our busy moments too.
who doesnt wantsa break or a lil getaway you tell me?
but if im gonna go out because of you,
then who's gonna stay home because of my homework?
it's not that i dont want a break, i badly want one
but im in no position to have one because i know my priorities
and it just aint the right timing to drink have fun and party.
im sorry korkee,
it's not that i wanna avoid or ignore you.
i just dont want your insensitivity and my crankiness to rub shoulders.
and do understand that im alrdy giving you face
by not putting you down telling you how people cant be bothered actually.
lemme tell you a secret,
even your girlfriend asks me to ignore you because you're just being irritating. (:
love, gil.
till then; 12:39 AM
